True Story Involving Hopeless Romantic

Hahahahhaa...it happens all the time with all characters I've the opportunity to become acquaintance. :)

It works like this :

- I read Splendid! I wanted to marry Alex Ridgeley.

- I read Dancing At Midnight! I wanted to marry John Blackwood.

- I read The Duke & I! I wanted to marry Simon Basset.

- I read An Offer From A Gentleman! I wanted to marry Benedict Bridgerton. (All the Bridgerton's brothers I must say)

- I read Devil In Winter! I wanted to marry Sebastian StVincent.

- I read The Duke Is Mine! I wanted to marry Tarquin Brook-Chatfield.

- I read The Hellion In Her Bed! I wanted to marry Jarret Sharpe.

- I read Paradise! I WANT to marry Matthew Farrel beyond anything.

- I read Perfect! I WANT to marry Zack Benedict beyond Matt.

- I read Every Breath You Take! I WANT to marry Mitchell Wyatt beyond Matt & Zack.

- I read Whitney My Love! I WANT to marry Clayton Westmorland as my historical husband and still have Mitchell as my contemporary husband.

- And then I read Almost Heaven!!!!! I WANT to marry IAN THORNTON beyond anything and anyone. He is my one and only. And finally I can make a decision. I love Ian Thornton the most. With him, I can forget about Matt,Zack,Mitchell, Clayton and other names above. :)

You can conclude that I am Judith McNaught biased. :)

But someone can top Ian Thornton! MR FITZWILLIAM DARCY. My Mr Darcy can top anyone else and I may say, no living man can compare to him, a fictional character. Oh Jane Austen, that's a terrible thing you created. I couldn't find someone for me then. Hahahaha...

Guess I'm not terribly in love with Ian. Or maybe I just love both Ian and Mr.Darcy fully and equally. :)        

I wouldn't know because I'm a HOPELESS ROMANTIC!!!!!            

Almost Heaven - Judith McNaught

"Lifting her eyes to his enigmatic golden ones, she said quietly, “Ian, have you ever wanted something very badly-something that 
was within your grasp-and yet you were afraid to reach out for it?” 
Surprised by her grave question and her use of his name, Ian tried to ignore the jealousy that had been eating at him all night. “No,” he said, scrupulously keeping the curtness from his voice as he gazed down at her alluring face. “Why do you ask? Is there something you want?” 
Her gaze fell from his, and she nodded at his frilled white shirtfront. 
“What is it you want?” 
“You."  


Awwww.... This is why I love Almost Heaven the most. I've been reading this novel for at least 17 times. I never get tired of this couple. Ian Thornton especially. And I admit, Elizabeth Cameron was loveable and adorable. I'm happy for Ian. She's perfect for him. :)


Unlike Julia Quinn, heroes and heroins of Judith were perfect!  (I still love John) He must be handsome! He must be rich! He must be intelligent. He must be anything beyond my wildest dream :) . He must be respected by the ton and the society. He must be succeed in his business. He must be the sought after. He must be blue blood. Not a mere mister and always the highest in the ranking. Always dukes, marquesses and an earl. Never a viscount nor a baron. He would be facing world's most horrid moments one could only hope not to live a day longer but still managed to escape the horrendous experience. 
He would love fiercely, unconditionally and irrevocably. He would be a rake. He would have treat any other women with lowest regard but not HER! She would be everything for him. She was his vulnerable spot. She could damage his everything. His soul, his mind, his body. By the sight of her, he could be at ease. At the sound of her voice, his blood would stir wildly. With her beauty and grace, he would be the most proud man. But, with only words, she could bring him down. 
In the world's eyes, he was the greatest man, he was perfection, he was respected, and he was the the most influenced people. But with her, he was nothing. He was vulnerable. He was weak. He was..he was...he was in love! Love will soften him. Love will bring him happiness. And she was his love,his happiness his everything. 
And she would be a beauty, a proud beauty. A happiness. Grace was her middle name. Only she can fit him to perfection. Only she can embrace his soul. Only she can bring the long lost laughter from him. Only she can bring him happiness. The perfection in his arm would be her.
All Judith McNaught's novel would have these all qualities. And I love every single of them. 
Ian Thornton was not a rake, that was a surprise. He was  a scot. He was the most stood out hero.  He broke the tradition by loving her first . He was first a mere mister with no money but only skill in gambling and the face that would make Michaelangelo's David to nothing ( but in my case Alex O'Loughlin) :p . But he turned out to be the heir of the Duke Of Stanhope which make him the Marquess of Kensington. See?? No mere mister. Even he refused to have any relation with his grandfather he reconcile with him only to save Elizabeth. See? Years and years of hatred and refusal being set aside just for Elizabeth. He would do anything for her. You have to read the novel to understand what I'm talking about. I'm  not going to type everything :) .
Let's just say they were happy (extremely happy and romantic and beautiful) for three months after their wedding when something unexpected happened. Out of sudden, there were barristers, and jails and House Of Lords and trials and everything that put Ian's life at risk. 
There were also a divorce petition! Poor them both. Ian was a scot, once he was betrayed, he would do anything to put a stop to his agony, including Elizabeth. And I forgot to mention the appearances of Jordan and Alexandra Townsend in this novel(they were the hero&heroin of Something Wonderful). 
Elizabeth been running from him and his vengeance for three moments and suddenly Ian wasn't himself. He couldn't make decisions, he couldn't sleep, he couldn't be him and he laid awake every night wanting her. 

"If you would take one step forward, darling, you could cry in my arms. And while you do, I'll tell you how sorry I am for everything I've done -" Unable to wait, Ian caught her, pulling her tightly against him. "And when I'm finished," he whispered hoarsely as she wrapped her arms around him and wept brokenly, "you can help me find a way to forgive myself."
Tortured by her tears, he clasped her tighter and rubbed his jaw against her temple, his voice a ravaged whisper: "I'm sorry," he told her. He cupped her face between his palms, tipping it up and gazing into her eyes, his thumbs moving over her wet cheeks. "I'm sorry." Slowly, he bent his head, covering her mouth with his. "I'm so damned sorry." 


This is so beautiful. Nothing can top this. I would treasure this moment for as long until I find anything better which I doubt and that would make as long as I shall live. :) 
I love you Ian Thornton. 

I Want You To Need Me - Celine Dion

I want to be the face you see when you close your eyes
I want to be the touch you need every single night
I want to be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between

I want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dream
The way that I taste you feel you breathe you need you
I want you to need me
Like I need you

I want to be the eyes that look deep into your soul
I want to be the world to you
I just want it all
I want to be your deepest kiss
The answer to your every wish
I'm all you ever need

[Chorus]

More than you could know
And I need you
To never never let me go
And I need to be deep inside your heart
I just want to be everywhere you are....

I want to be the face you see when you close your eyes
I want to be the touch you need every single night
I want to be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between


I realized that this song suited John & Belle's story. How Belle felt when she realized John needed her and she wanted so badly to be needed by John. Awww...perfect song for them. :)
Happy ending in the end. That's all that matters.

Dancing At Midnight - Julia Quinn

"Look at me," John gasped. "I cannot remember the last time I allowed
myself to be so happy. I smile all day long without knowing why. I climbed a bloody tree, vaulted through your window, and here I am—laughing.It's the middle of the night, and yet here I am
with you. Dancing at midnight, holding perfection in my arms." -John Blackwood to Arabella Blydon" 


John! Belle! I love them both. I always looking for a perfect hero with a perfect heroin which I thought would make a perfect love story ever. Until I met John & Belle and then I realized I was wrong. John was crippled. He was limping handsomely I must say. He was a Baron and I like him even sometimes I prefer mere mister than Baron (Duke biased). I love injured hero. I told myself I would be happy with a someone like John, not perfect but at least he was perfect for me (in this case for Belle). I pictured him walking and limping and in pained and I..I..I love him. I'm in love. I'm in love with a fiction hero. An injured one. A crippled one. And I don't give a damn. I want someone like him. Always thinking he was not worthy for someone, pushed that person away when the truth he was everything anyone ever dreamed of having. I love the fact that he was a soldier. He had nightmares, he blamed himself with everything, he thought his soul was dark and love was not an option in his dreadful life. I love troubled heroes. I love imperfect heroes. I love John and Hugh(next Smythe-Smith hero) . I found this story was so heartbreaking , so tender, so lovely and awakened  poignant feelings. The ending was marvelous of course. Belle came at his rescue. She saved him from his bleak life. She gave him love. He was loved by what most of the ton agree a perfect woman. Belle was for him. They were meant for each other. I couldn't help myself from crying when I thought John was going to die. Spencer was going to shoot him, and I don't like thinking my perfect hero die. I still can't get over the matter. I ached for him and I know just how he felt about himself. I always feel like that. I am not perfect. Nobody's perfect. But with John, I feel perfect. I feel like there is hope for the like of us (John and me) who was hoping for a perfectly happy ending when myself is not perfect to grasp the perfection. I am so attached with John character that I found myself hoping he was not just a novel's hero. But I can't thank Julia Quinn enough for creating him. He was everything that was closer to the reality. I'm sorry. I love the story so much. Lots of 'aww' moments but for now, I just want to cherish this wonderful moment with MY PERFECT IMPERFECT HERO!

Splendid - Julia Quinn

Splendid is splendid! Julia Quinn will never disappoint me.  I love stories about duke (I'm a duchess anyway :p) . And this one is marvelous. Alexander Ridgley, the Duke Of Ashbourne was really really adorable! Hahaha...he was! And cute and awww...he was gorgeous and handsome beyond...hmm...little problem! I find that all the heroes were handsome. Blast! Alex was really handsome indeed. Green eyes, thick, black hair...I couldn't ask for more. Jealous of Emma(his wife or better say his Duchess), how couldn't I be jealous. She got Alex, she got the title, she got the huge estates and of course the grand house and she was loved. :( I am crying for my misfortune and for my lack of rational thinking to differ reality from fiction! Grrr.... I couldn't help myself. Everyone reacts the same, thinks the same and crying over this nonsense (not really nonsense for me).  Julia Quinn's debut novel was really captivating. Humorous, lots of fun, I found myself giggling and sometimes I couldn't contain my laughter. I read past my bedtime! I shouldn't laughed out loud but who cares (my parents did). Need to remind myself not to read Julia Quinn's novels at midnight but you could if there's no one around you that needs good sleep :) . I always love this quote       'reformed rakes often make the best husbands' . This is for Alex I believe. He was a rake. I love rakes. They always good at everything involving women. I love when they realized their mistresses couldn't wipe away the desire they felt for this particular lady. :) It's just like they knew the one for them but refused to acknowledge the feeling. Silly but cute. Hehe.. I love when they suddenly changed, they suddenly knew the smell of the lady, the color of the lady's eyes, the hair , the lips, the skin, the..emm..everything?? Yep, they thought the air changed when she was there. They dreamed of her, they ached for her but refused to admit love. Thousand times CUTE! :) Alex was all that and more. He didn't like to go to balls but because of Emma , he went to all balls where Emma went. He couldn't be at ease without seeing her at least once a day. And I adore his family. His mother was adorable, his younger sister was talkative and so much in love with her husband and so charming. Splendid! Everything was so splendid. The moment they ran to each other (not really run,she fainted), it just happened. Even when he thought Emma was a maid, he didn't care, well he did care for her :) . And adorable little Charlie was chewable(Sophie's son). Imagined Alex facial expression when he realized that the beautiful miss he thought a maid was actually an heiress from America. Awww... I like this kind of moment. And he was so possessive of Emma and scared off her admirers. Million times CUTE! Haha, and the friendship shown between Alex and Dunford was so heartwarming. And when he was in rage because of Emma's stupidity , he looked so handsome(my imagination really good indeed) . I am reading 'Dancing At Midnight' now and Alex and Emma made appearances and I realized I couldn't get enough of them. There was this scene where Emma accompanied Belle to London for 2 weeks but Alex won't let her and gave her a week of time only. Her first day there, Alex sent her notes twice asking her to come home and saying that he missed her terribly. Hahahaha, infinity of CUTENESS!! Read Splendid please. It was so splendid beyond splendid! Hahaha, you won't regret a bit. Arrhhh...I typed so much already. Blame Alex! He was the reason for all the reasons why I typed so much!
Kisses and hugs for them. :) I'll be enjoying their company in another novel besides the one I am reading right now. :) It's going to be Dunford's love stories!

I Think I'm In Love

I'm in love with none other than Alex O'Loughlin. Who can say no to this beautiful creature :p

It's not really love. Hahaha..I mean he's just perfect(at least in my eyes) . I can picture him as Zach Benedict from 'Perfect' . Sometimes, I pictured him as Matthew Farrel from 'Paradise' . Well, it has to stop because Zach and Matt were bestfriends and there were lots of scenes where they're together. Same person?? Grrr....better find someone else for Matt. Hihihi... And just recently, I pictured him as Danial Smythe-Smith from 'A Night Like This' . I just read the novel yesterday! Couldn't help myself. Alex is just..emm..how should I describe him? PERFECT & FLAWLESS & look at those SMILES of him. Awwwww......he's so cute, adorable but tough looking. Gorgeous!! Oh, I forgot! He also perfect as Anthony Bridgerton , the famous Viscount from the famous family created by Julia Quinn. He is suitable! Believe me even though I'm biased. I don't lie when it comes to gorgeous people. :)

Terrified - Katharine McPhee

You by the light is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time and the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than last
And nothing's worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean it 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever I'm without you

You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
I'm at the edge of my emotions
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life


This song is for all Julia Quinn's romance novels. 
Love this so much. Enjoy. 

A Night Like This - Julia Quinn

ONE..TWO..THREE.. AWWWWWWWWWWWW............(still not enough) AWWWWWWWWWWWW............(not enough but should stop) I recommend you guys to snatch this novel right away. I mean, it's wonderful, really really wonderful. I love Harriet, I love Elizabeth, I love Frances, I love Sarah, oh and I love Anne, but of course I love Danial the most. I mean truly, deeply, madly in love with him(sorry Anne). And I also love Hugh. Can't wait for her next novel with Hugh as the hero. :) Save that for next year,hihi. Emm..how should I describe this story? At first I thought that it would be just like ' An Offer From A Gentleman' but it turned out to be even better. She was not an illegitimate child which was a relief, but sadly she's not an innocence. But as Danial didn't mind a bit, I shouldn't mind at all. I love them both. I love how Danial just fell hard for Anne. I mean it was like love at first sight. Hehehe.. I kinda into that kind of thing you know. Fall in love instantly and awwww... Danial said he loved her. He wanted to marry her. I wish I meet someone like Danial. I love everything about him. The smile(imagined and love it), the humor, the patience, his face of course(handsome!!) and the way he treated his young cousins. He spent so much time with the girls only to be with her. How awe-inspiring was that? He was a remarkable gentleman and she was the loveliest, even-tempered, beautiful girl I ever fell in love like instantly. Never happens before. I usually hate them first, then apologized then love them. But with Anne, *sigh, no wonder Danial love her so much that he was even willing to do anything and overlooked everything as long as they were together. I adore him so so much. You two have my consent. Be happy and please help Sarah so that she can be married to Hugh forthwith and help her from having to lie to everyone especially her belove mother only to save herself from another dreadful musicale of Smythe-Smith. Help her and PLEASE MAKE APPEARANCE IN THE NEXT SMYTHE-SMITH NOVEL. With that in mind I could bear another year of waiting. Daaaaaa.....

Devil In Winter - Lisa Kleypas

Finished reading 'Devil In Winter'. Hmmm...in the middle of the story, I was beginning to feel that it's going to be boring. Yep,boring as hell but only for a while. Thanks to our hero,St Vincent ,everything seemed perfect again. It's really took me by surprise because I never knew someone like him. I mean, he was supposedly a rake. RAKE! Yet, he was so sweet and gentle and kind and..and..and..oh no! I mean, I never read about a hero bathing his wife, combing her hair, draping towel to her wet body, even put nightgown on her. He was so sweet and emm. I'm not sure If I like it. But, yeah, it's new to me. And I realized that this story reminded me of Julia Quinn's 'Just Like Heaven'. Fantastic!! To hate Sebastian is really really hard thing to do. He was so loveable. But sadly, I took 3 days to finish. I was not looking forward as how it ends. There's no moment of 'aww' but always big smiles on my face. :) For a hopeless romantic like myself, it's not romantic enough, but worth of reading. I love Lisa Kleypas. I wish I have more money so that I can have all her novels. Thanks Lisa, now I'm in helpless condition finding someone for myself without comparing him to Sebastian St.Vincent. Hmmm...guess I'll be another wallflower :p

Sneakily Disobeyed Mom's Order

Heehehhehe...sorry mom. I couldn't help myself. I mean,every bookaholic like me won't able to stand this. Im reading Lisa Kleypas' "Devil In Winter" . Hmmm... Im not sure if I will like it but then, I stop for a while at page 40. Can't decide yet. Oh yeah,kinda similar to Julia Quinn's styl of writing. I think I will love it. Oh God!! Then I have to buy all her novels. Money...money... I hope I wont like her until I have all Julia Quinn's novels. Please..please.... *sighing....long long sigh.... Wish me luck!! I don't know what for but emm... Ahhh..shut up!! Viscount St Vincent! You better make yourself hateable..or I..or I... Or I....Grrrrrr....I love you already! T_T

Lose My Mind - The Wanted

They say that time
Heals everything
But they don’t know you
And the scars you bring

‘Cos you left a jagged hole
And I can’t stand it anymore
If heartache was a physical pain
I could face it I could face it
But you’re hurting me
From inside of my head
I can’t take it I can’t take it
I’m gonna lose my mind
I’m gonna lose my mind

I’d erase my thoughts
If only I knew how
Fill my head with white noise
If it would drown you out

Kill the sound

If heartache was a physical pain
I could face it I could face it
But you’re hurting me
From inside of my head
I can’t take it I can’t take it
I’m gonna lose my mind
I’m gonna lose my mind

And I’d rather be crazy
I’d rather go insane
Than having you stalk
My every thought
Then having you here inside my heart

If heartache was a physical pain
I could face it I could face it
But you’re hurting me
From inside of my head
I can’t take it I can’t take it
I’m gonna lose my mind
I’m gonna lose my mind

Im gonna lose my mind. Urrhh.. I can't wait for 2 weeks to read the books.

T_T . Lose My Mind~~~~ oh..Lost my mind already!!! 

Decisions! Decisions!

Yay!! The wait is over. :) I don't know where to begin. Which one should I read first. Awwww..beautiful!!
But unfortunately, I couldn't read any yet. These books are all I have to fill my time when I go to university which is going to be another 2 weeks from now. Grrr...
Awful!
This is worse than having to pinch every shilling to buy a book. At least, by the time I got the book, I can straight away reading it.
But now, just before my eyes! I thought I heard voices saying "Come, read me!! Explore me from cover to cover. Come dear."
Holy crap! I need distractions. Oh yeah, torture me more. Read the first few chapters of each book. And see what's going to happen to me.
I'll be in agony. *Sighing.....
Decisions...Decisions...

Nanny Of The Day

Dad's working hundred miles away.
Mom's also the same but only 20 miles away.
I am at home all day long with my little 2 year-old sister.
She's nagging a lot. But she didn't cry.
Lucky me.
Mom left home at 7.00am and still hasn't come back after 8.00 pm.
I picked up my other little sister from school. (I drove).
Huh! Really tired today. I can no longer address myself a 'duchess' :p .
My maid didn't come today so I had to do all the chores.
Yay me..grrrr....
Mom! Please come back home. I'm tired.
I can't sleep and most importantly I can't read.
Even a sentence.
I plan to reread 'An Offer From A Gentleman' by Julia Quinn but....
Tomorrow...tomorrow..and tomorrow...
Crap, I am expecting the books I ordered being delivered tomorrow.
I can't reread the book then.
Until next time.
Zzzzzzz......(sleepyhead)

Soaring In Love

I just read Eloisa James' facebook status and she was asking us to suggest a title for her new upcoming book. It's a story about Rapunzel. Many left their comments. She also stated that if her editor chose any titles from us she will send gift from Italy.
 So why don't I try. I decided to suggest her 'Soaring In Love' . Hehe, just want to test my luck. I'm not very lucky in things like this. Hopefully she chose mine.
But then, I also don't expect much. 'Soaring In Love' really sounds boring. Even I thought it's boring so Eloisa might think it sounds thousand times boring. But it's not wrong to dream.
Whatever title she chose, I'll buy the book. :)

Elle - Melissa M

Song for mom!! Thank You For The Novels! :)

 'ELLE = SHE'

Elle est mon âme 

Elle est mon cœur 

Elle est ma flamme,me mon bonheur 

Et c’est elle qui m’a donné la vie, 

Elle fait partie de moi 

Elle est mon sang 

Elle est mes yeux 

Elle est mon ange, le plus précieux 

Et c’est elle qui m’a donnée la vie, 

Elle fait partie de moi 

Refrain : 

Elle est tout ce que j’ai de plus chère au monde 

Ma raison d’etre, ma raison de vivre 

Près d’elle, je serai jusqu’à la dernière seconde 

C’est elle que j’aime 

Elle est ma vie 

Elle est mon ombre 

Elle est ma voix 

Elle est mon or 

Elle est ma foi 

C’est elle qui m’a donné la vie, Elle fait partie de moi 

Elle est ma chance 

Elle est mon souffle, mon existence 

C’est plus que tout, 

C’est elle qui m’a donné la vie, Elle fait partie de moi

P/S : Search the translation!! :) Enjoy!!

Yay! I am gleefully happy and merry.

:) . Yay me!! I managed to persuade my mom into buying me few novels of Judith McNaught, Julia Quinn and Lisa Kleypas. Yay me!! Hehehe.. I just ordered them online and expecting to be sent in two days.

My List Of Soon-to-be-mine Books :

1. Simple Gifts -Judith Mcnaught & Jude Deveraux

2. Splendid - Julia Quinn

3. Dancing At Midnight - Julia Quinn

4. Everything and The Moon - Julia Quinn

5. Brighter Than The Sun - Julia Quinn 

6. A Night Like This - Julia Quinn

7. Devil In Winter - Lisa Kleypas

Now I have full collection of Judith McNaught's novels officially(in two days). I am so happy. And I also on my my to achieve the very same goal of having full collection of Julia Quinn's novels. Well, 5 more to get. But almost complete.

I have one very simple rule. Once I started liking an author I'll keep on buying her other novels until I have all of them. Excluding the one that has not be released yet. But until then, I wont buy other author's works.

'Simple Gifts' was collaboration between Jude & Judith, so I am free to buy Quinn's novels. Hehe...

But since I know I'll have all Quinn's novels in short of times, I have to look for other author by trying one novel. If the novel satisfied me, then I'll keep on buying her novels. As simple as that.

That's all for today.Peace no war!! And thanks mom!!! :)

A Kingdom Of Dreams - Judith McNaught

Just finished rereading 'A Kingdom Of Dreams' by none other than Judith McNaught. It's been such a long time since I first read the book. Never forget how handsome Royce Westmorland was(hihi) but I forgot about the situation I was in the last time I read it. Well, it happened again today. 'I Like You, Then I Hate You, But I Love You' is referring to our most lovely(to Royce),annoying(to both Royce & I but more to me) and stubborn as hell(Royce & I both agree equally this time) Jennifer Merrick. Grrr....the whole time I was reading, I was prepared to strangle her neck, her father's neck , her stepbrother's neck , her damn cursed family's neck for being so ridiculous and faulty and awful .And for good reason(jealous), I also wished to strangle Royce's neck for being such a fool and still love her after what she's done to him. Aaahh..after all, we are all fools in love. And Royce was not an exception despite him being the 'wolf' for his callousness in battlefields. I adore him for being so gentle towards Jenny because, were I in his place, I would've beaten her and treated her with coolness and remained aloof. Guess I am not romantic enough to write romances but still enough to appreciate good stories. There, there, let me tell you how stupid Royce was, decisions beclouded with love toward Jenny. He even tried to get himself killed just to keep his word to Jenny(noble indeed but stupid) . I cried twice. TWICE!! First was definitely for Royce who was willing to sacrifice his life because she blamed him for killing her brother(stepbrother) which in my eyes, I'd say it looked rather like accident than purposely done which was true but of course Jenny wouldn't believe him. She also convinced not only herself that Royce was a beast(well wolf as people called him) but Royce himself that he killed her brother in cold blood and eventually made him take all the blame. I hate her. Please don't hate me, read the novel first and you will understand my feeling. Out of  438 pages, for about 300 pages of my 'journey' in the story, all I can think about was hatred.And that led to my second weep. Well not exactly weeping, I'd rather say I was bawling with hatred towards none other than Jennifer 'The Merrick Slut (stated in the book for very good reasons indeed) . You know what I hate about her the most? Our besotted, handsome,strong, powerful, fool Royce Westmorland, the first Duke Of Claymore, the Wolf of war, the king's favourite finally said he loved her and to my utter disbelieve there was no moment suit for any 'aww' like other moments like this kind. I cant 'aww' when Jenny decided to refuse his declaration of love. HATE her! I will kill to hear him say that words to me(all McNaught's heroes to be precise). If I were in his place, I would find another human being with BRAIN and bright enough to not throw the words back to my face. She also publicly humiliated her husband by defying him , treated him like he was nothing but a piece of cold mutton(exaggerating), denied his rights, and refused to be sided with him at the tournament and went to her bloody family. How can I like someone who treated my hero like that?? Poor Royce. But in the end, I love her and even respect her. No wonder all this time Royce kept treating her gently and be so patience.  What exactly did she do to make my opinion to her change 360 degree, dramatically?? Prepare yourself for something so poignant and tender and beautiful. Haaa Jenny, I'm sorry for calling you names. She was actually knelt in front of her terribly injured husband who was in my opinion a wonder he didn't die, begging for forgiveness and by doing that she was actually defied her family and her king and her country(she's a scot) and it was so memorable that I ached for both of them. They'd been through so many things. Oh yeah, it was also the time I 'aww' . Hehe.. awwwww....Jenny I was so wrong about you. There you go, you have my blessing, be happy and produce heir to inherit the dukedom. Oooppsss, there were Clayton Westmorland, the 9th Duke Of Claymore already produced the 10th Duke Of Claymore in 'Whitney, My Love' . Awww.... make sure you read the novels of Westmorland's family. Be nice!! :)

Desperate Duchess...

Well, this is not Eloisa James' novel. It's me!! Since I named this blog 'Romantic Duchess' , I might as well refer myself as duchess!! Everyone has dream,hehehe... That's not the point, my point being is I was 'refused' by my mother. She refused to buy me Julia Quinn's new novel 'A Night Like This' . Oh man!! How desperate I am. Maybe because I just spent her money last two weeks on several novels of Kleypas , McNaught and her(other novels). But still, *sighing. I am so desperate to know what happens with Smythe-Smith's family. I should focus more on school but there's no harm letting me indulge in the world of love, passion,devotion,infatuation and any other words found in thesaurus. Well, maybe a little harm as I often daydreaming and laughing out of sudden remembering funny, romantic scenes from novels and seemed to repel boys(a good thing indeed). But still, I can improve my English and hey mom, I got the highest in my last test. Thanks to these wonderful novels and of course the authors. Hmmm...still didn't change the fact that I can't have the novel. Urggghhh...good day everyone. Be nice to your mom and persuade her nicely until you succeed. Don't be like me. T_T (crying) hahaha...my nice side was spent last two weeks when I persuaded her to spent few hundreds on the novels. That's why I failed today. Don't get me wrong, :)

What Are You Doing For The Rest Of Your Life - Barbra Streisand

What are you doing the rest of your life? 
North and South and East and West of your life? 
I have only one request of your life 
That you spend it all with me. 

All the seasons and the times of your days. 
All the nickels and the dimes of your days. 
Let the reasons and the rhymes of your days. 
All begin and end with me. 

I want to see your face, 
In every kind of light, 
In fields of gold and 
Forests of the night; 
And when you stand before 
The candles on a cake. 
Oh let me be the one to hear 
The silent wish you make. 

Those tomorrows waiting deep in your eyes 
In the world of love you keep in your eyes, 
I'll awaken what's asleep in your eyes, 
It may take a kiss or two.. 

Through all of my life.. 
Summer, Winter, Spring and Fall of my life, 
All I ever will recall of my life 
Is all of my life with you. 

I only knew the existence of this song from 'Perfect' . Wonderful song I must say! Aaahh.... Love song of Zachary Benedict & Julie Mathison . And recently became my favourite song! :) Thank you Judith McNaught.